Write What You Need To Hear

WRITE WHAT YOU NEED TO HEAR

I need to hear I will be ok. 
No, I need to hear 
YOU ARE ALREADY OK. 
YOU ARE OK IN ALL YOUR NOT OKAY-NESS.

I need to hear that this roller coaster of 
rage 
exhaustion 
delight 
connection
despair
paralysis 
fear
frustration
joy
love
laughter
crying
screaming
silencing
sleeping, sleeping, sleeping 
trying, trying, trying,
waiting, waiting, waiting,
risking risking, risking,
falling, falling, falling
hurting, hurting, hurting
will maybe stop 
or slow down 
or that i will one day learn how to call it all love and excitement and 
WHEE!!!
Instead of
FUCKING GET ME OFF THIS THING!

I need to hear "it's ok if all you can do today is cry."
I need to hear "yes I'll come scream with you"
I need to hear "what do you need?" 
I need to hear "it's ok if you don't know what you need yet."

I need to hear someone cares.

I need to hear "It's ok to be angry. I am too"
I need to hear "this too shall pass, but while it's here I think we can enjoy it."
I need to hear "I need you too."
I need to hear "I'm so glad you are here."
I need to hear "I love you not despite how you feel right now, but because of what you feel right now."

And now. 
And now. 
And now.

I need to hear everyone gathered in the streets to 
hug each other
today

I need to hear everyone turned in their guns to 
be melted down and transformed into memorial hearts engraved with all the names of lives lost too soon 
Put on display 
Lovingly tended
Charms against future heartbreak
today

I need to hear we tore down walls and 
opened cages and 
reunited families 
today

I need to hear people gathered to learn, pray, celebrate, watch movies, drive to work, get groceries and 
everyone lived to tell about it
today

I want to hear the front page story of every newspaper was a story of someone
who is still alive
creating joy/love/hope/togetherness
who is still alive
I want us all to be 
loved and 
praised and 
valued while 
we are still alive
today

I've been in and around a lot of conversations about death lately.
Funny thing happens when I let myself talk about and 
dwell in the inevitability of death.
I appreciate life 
so
much 
more

I know all endings contain beginnings
I know all beginnings will have an end
I know this is good news.

But still I fight it.

What I need to hear today:

I need to hear you laughing
I need to hear you crying
I need to hear you screaming
I need to hear you singing
I need to hear you dancing
I need to hear you breathing
I need to hear you loving

I need to hear you 
I need to hear you
I need to hear you

What do you need to hear today?